Before you took a breath, when God ‘first’ thought of you, the Father recklessly loved you.
You have done nothing to earn this love and nothing you can do can make the Father less. Even in your darkness sins, the Father loves you so much that He sends Jesus, His only Son to call you from darkness. In that moment, He calls you.
Turn and be overwhelmed by the reckless love of God.
It will change you ever more.