I was one way, and now..

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REBIRTH. A decade ago I was brought to my knees by God in an effort to irrevocably alter my life, and did He ever.

Through His infinite love, Mercy and grace, He offered my busted self a glimpse of what was to come if only I committed fully to him…In EVERY area of my life.
That thick, stone wall of blissfully arrogant ignorance, illusory “independence” & persistent, pointless pride proved to be nothing more than an elaborate, delusional ruse, contrived through spiritual blindness to what COULD BE, if only I relinquished control. A near decade of struggle, table-flipped in a matter of hours through the humbled utterance of two simple words: “I SURRENDER.”

This meager phrase set in motion a chain of events that led me to where I am now.
For that I am profoundly & unyieldingly grateful to Him.

Surrender is a state of mind. Necessary in every season.
It is a daily cross one must pick up no matter how confident or dejected one may feel.
No matter how well or poorly one may be doing. And if in you’re in despair, all the more reason to offer that despair to Him who allowed it in the first place. It’s the ultimate Trust exercise. You must trust Him enough to give Him what you can’t handle. And when you finally dive, He will make an ocean where you least expect it.

And then multiply it. Oceans of Grace.

I am living proof of this.
Yes, I STILL struggle with surrender, but I am no less committed to handing over the keys of control everyday.
Completely and blindly trusting.

If you have not done so, consider truly ‘inhabiting’ those words, “I surrender” and see how God will then be able to work miracles in your life like He has in mine.

After mass & much reflection over the last several hours, a quote keeps springing to mind that sums up my Surrender experience.
“ I was one way, and now I am completely different, and the thing that happened in between was Him.”

Surrender is necessary – trust is key!

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