“I have become interiorly united with God. His presence penetrates me to my very depths and fills me with peace, joy and amazement. After such moments of prayer, I am filled with strength and an extraordinary courage to suffer and struggle. Nothing terrifies me, even if the whole world should turn against me. All adversities touch only the surface, but they have no entry to the depths, because God, who strengthens me, who fills me, dwells there. All the snares of the enemy are crushed at His footstool. During these moments of union, God sustains me with His might. His might passes on to me and makes me capable of loving Him. A soul never reaches this state by its own efforts.” Divine Mercy in my soul #480
I am still in the forge being worked on by the Smith as he continues to hone and polish the burrs and marks from the metal that is my soul.
After I had passed through this period of darkness, God pulled me from the fire, having forged me stronger. Though no longer in the flame my heart still glows with a fire and passion that is white hot. I have been quenched in the Precious Blood of our Savior and tempered in the fire of the Spirit.
For days after that retreat, I walked with a new vigor and energy. I had seen the love and mercy of Jesus shine through so brightly. And then the Father began His finishing work. He had freed me from guilt and darkness and now began to etch His Name upon my soul.
This began His ‘polishing’ under St Faustina’s tutelage through the her writings in the diary that rested fully within the one point I had until recently struggled with, TRUST. In the image that He has signed, “Jesus, I trust in You”
As St Faustina wrote in paragraph 480, no soul reaches a state of closeness with the Father on its own. It is “God, who strengthens me, who fills me, dwells there. All the snares of the enemy are crushed at His footstool. During these moments of union, God sustains me with His might.” Through all this I rest assured that “His might passes on to me and makes me capable of loving Him.” When I couldn’t trust, God loves me until I could look up into His eyes without shame and through the might of His Love, He showed me exactly why I should, why every soul should trust in Him. Through His persevering love, He “makes me capable of loving Him”. And that gives me power – power to be called a child of God.