“I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I agree that the law is good. But in fact it is no longer I that do it, but sin that dwells within me. For I know that nothing good dwells within me, that is, in my flesh. I can will what is right, but I cannot do it. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I do. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I that do it, but sin that dwells within me.” Romans 7:15-30
Lord, I stand in contest against you. My spirit desires to be near You but I continue to do what I know is wrong and opposed to You and You Divine Will for me. My only hope, Lord, is that You conquer my heart. Conquer my Heart.
I don’t know about you, but I make my Road of Faith so difficult. I know by faith Who God is and what He desires of me. Even in my intellect do I know these things. I even understand that His desires are better for me and more far reaching than my dreams. Yet, I still do what is wrong. I still fall into sim more times than I dare say in my pride (another sin).
As much as I fight to be who God desires of me, I do the opposite. I don’t understand my own actions. So many sins come ‘from’ me without thought or effort. So many of those I don’t even intend but do anyway. As much as my spirit and even mind tell me how to live, I do what I do not want. My sin stains my heart.
I pray this morning that God come and conquer my heart. Take what is His. He has already claimed my soul upon the cross. He does that I would not stand before the judgment seat alone. I am His, my soul is marked by His sign from my baptism. Come Lord, claim what is Yours and conquer my heart. Take away all that opposes You and Your Will for my life, give me back only Yourself.
I wrote this reflection then Praise Nation PGH posted a new, original song. I was blown away by God’s grace and confirmation in answer to my prayer. As they sing, ‘Conquer my heart’, the Lord responds ‘I will, I have. You are mine.’
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